grumble...grum--i will be a happy and joyful being.

instead of thinking about how i woke up at six thirty to get on a train that i missed because the genius' of batavia shut down the whole bridge (as in BOTH sides!) making the ten minutes to get to the train station instead of five or how i walked around downtown chicago pretending i knew where i was going when i didn't, or how the purple express train conductor must have been new because of all the jerked stops made caused me to become sick and thanking the Lord that i don't have to take the l to school next year, or how i had to stay after an hour at work, or how i have to get up at 6:30 for work tomorrow, or how the allmarts just left for b*town (taking amia with them) i WILL not think/talk about those things.

i will talk about how when the merkels came for a surprise short visit yesterday, i found out that they missed me as much as i missed them. the love goes both way, people. both. ways. vahid right away screamed, "anya! can you babysit?!" and jumped out of his seat, katana pleaded to get out of hers, and xcyden, xcyden made the "i want" motion and grunt in my direction and when i went to close the door to their van she started to cry. we are talking about xcyden here, xcyden cried for me. (psst...heather believe when i say i'm not trying to rub this in your face, someday i hope you will experence the feeling of your heart strings pulling from the fact that xcyden merkel was just crying for you. someday, heather. someday.)

i will talk about how, after forever (five months or some crazy deranged long time like that), i got to see karen and riane at the same time. naturally, there was the traditional track talk (seriously, i consider myself as much of a track player as i am brazilian...i am 1/20th brazilian. i mean is that not fair to say?) and a movie.

i will talk about how when i finally went up the stairs to one of the loop stops i passed while pretending i knew where i was going/doing the rare purple line express line pulled up right in front of me, right as i was walking through the gate the train stopped and it's doors did magically open as though they were only pulling up for me (and giving me no time to worry myself into thinking, "what if the purple line has already stopped running through the loop for the day?" i was able to just walk right onto it and relax (before i started feeling sick from the jerky trip, BUT i'm NOT thinking/talking about that, thank you.)

i will talk about how amia right away reached (from her mothers arms) for me when i got home today (after not seeing her for a week). then she cried for me when i had to leave for work. my plan was to leave early and make a stop in at the bank, but amia reached and whimpered for me and i quickly ditched the bank for amia (like i had a choice).

i will talk about how when i came home from work amia was still awake (a rare happening as of late) and when she saw me clapped and clapped, took hold of my face, and put her forehead on my forehead. my. heart. melted.

what was i saying at the beginning of this post? i can't remember.