oh, how i miss

i'm at that point where i'm starting to miss having friends around. people to hang out with, people to talk to and people to call up when you have a few hours to do something. the only time i get to see my friends now is if i get lucky enough to get two days off in a row from work. so you might be thinking, "wait a second, aren't you in chicago now where there are a bunch of cool people are?" yeah, a bunch of neat people i don't know. and there in lies the problem. anxiety hits an all time high when i think about going to events where i don't know people and i don't have that security blanket of a friend. you should have seen liza and i at feast the other night. there we were during refreshments saying, "where is suzanne and husayn?" we were like two lost children. it's so frustrating in need of that sort of comfort. why can't i just be outgoing, why can't i be able to go somewhere new where i don't know anyone and be excited about it? i think just overall i miss the familiarity and comfort of my friends. they are after all people i know and like, and well, i miss 'em.

anywho, talking about people i know and like, the merkels! stopped by p-nea yesterday. i must say that was one of the best surprises ever. a week and we will be off to nashville. yikes, i gotta start packing (and by packing i mean buying some swedish fish).